That disturbance in your spirit, the temptation which envelops you, seems to blindfold the eyes of your soul.
You are in darkness. Don't insist on walking by yourself, for, by yourself you will fall. Go to your Director to the person in charge and he will remind you of those words of Raphael the Archangel to Tobias:
'Take comfort; before long God will heal you.' Be obedient and the scales will fall from your eyes, and God will fill you with grace and with peace.