A missionary. You dream of being a missionary. Another Francis Xavier... And you long to conquer an empire for Christ. Japan, China, India, Russia... the peoples of the North of Europe, or America, or Africa, or Australia?
Stir up that fire in your heart, that hunger for souls. But don't forget that you are more of a missionary 'obeying'. Geographically distant from those apostolic fields, you work both 'here' and 'there': don't you like Xavier feel your arm tired after administering baptism to so many?